Happy New Life

Aku bersyukur aku hidup lagi
Aku bersyukur dia pun hidup lagi
Aku bersyukur takde sape pun mati
Aku bersyukur masih ada tangan dan kaki
Aku bersyukur Aku bersyukur...

Fate??

Life is an everlasting momentum that flows through every continents, mountains, hills, the sea, the ocean and spanned throughout the nation and accidents don’t happened…really!

Nothing is a coincidence. Coincidence doesn’t happen. What happened is fate. Fate is a living creature. Creeps, crawl, living on us and feed on our lives like a parasite. Fate owns our life. Fate is like chains at our feet controlling our boundaries that have been wrote.

You can’t escape fate. Fate comes in different ways and faces. If you are afraid of fate, don’t live. And don’t kill yourself either…it’s fated. Fate is not an appearing act. Fate is every minute. Fate is now. Fate is the closing show.

One fine day it cornered you for good…whether you like it or not…without a second too soon and too late. Then it’s a new life, with a new fate of course!

iDIOT tHOUGHTS oF tHe DaY

Idiotic Thoughts

"Shift your brain to your head from your rear end in order to maintain a low sense of stupidity in your actions and reactions pursuing life"

mOSH
I.D.I.O.T (I Do Insist On Thinking)
 

Tak Paham

Aku order nasi goreng seafood dapat nasi goreng seafood ade sotong, udang, telur etc..n ayam??!! Eh ayam ada duduk kat laut ker??!! Tak paham la orang ni seme...aku tak makan ayam sebab tu aku order nasi goreng seafood! Sabar je lah....

Mari membebel

 
The truth about reality(the mosh theory). Reality is what we believe, mostly is what we can see with our eyes, not with our minds…coz’ sometimes what’s in our minds can only be fantasies. Other than backed up logic things on our mind, everything else is considered non-reality. What we see and hear, smell and feel is reality. The difference is the moment in time or the time it occurs. Some things could be a reality now or the present but some things could turned out to be a reality in the future.

 

So it is divided into two…Present Reality and Future Reality. Or should I make them three including Past Reality? Past and Present Reality is the things that people already acknowledged or accepted, defined or achieved. It doesn’t need much thinking because it’s already become common or attainable, maybe not for everybody but known to almost everybody. It is accredited as facts. Some Past Reality have been ceased due to obsolete facts or updated new facts. Sometimes due to wrong or insufficient data or information during that period of time and presently it became fictitious and discarded as facts.

 

Future Reality needs a lot of thoughts and sometimes research. Future Reality expands with ongoing actions towards fulfillment. It will start with an idea or ideas. The idea or ideas maybe accepted. Then maybe it became à la mode or modern or popular. It began to have momentum and circles. It becomes an institution. It becomes facts. Afterwards, eventually it will go back one step back to become Present Reality and it can also be Past Reality in duration of time to come.

 

Everything goes into a circular motion whether we realize it or not. It is how life goes. It’s true what they say, “What comes around, goes around!”

Loverman 2004

Loverman. 2004.

Cheap watercolour n drawing paper. Inspired by song 'Loverman' by Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds (Let Love album 1994) and performed by Metallica in Garage Inc album 1998. 

Frolic in The Shadows

In life there is always a second chance. Maybe chances. Whatever, I always look at life as a big book. At every chapter there is something gained or lose. Sometimes we need to cry…outside, inside, out loud, softly, together, alone…

I missed my youth a lot. It was great, awful, sad, happy…beautiful. When we were younger we cried almost about everything. Now we seldom cry just because we are older. Oh if only I can cry cry cry cry cry for just about anything today I would feel a lot better tomorrow.

I have never taken chances very good.  Sometimes I never took them at all. They say “it’s better to make a bad decision rather than not at all” I think they are right. There’s a path for every decision. Not taking any mean not gaining anything. Afraid afraid. If I did something wrong, I always think it was fate. If I did something good (right), I forgot that it was fate. Both are truly wrong. Why? I can’t explain. If I died, what would I like to be remember as? Hmm...a good person?

“What is life?” Question asked a trillion times. Similar to “What is death?”…only less asked. Who am I?

Strawrange

Strawrange. Experimenting with paint 1997. 

Social Distortion

Traffic lights. Lots of 'em.  Hate 'em, especially when it is a hot day and my car aircond is not working plus I'm late for an appointment! Sometimes I feel stupid you know. Here I am stopping at a red traffic light waiting for it to turn green when actually there is no other car passing by and it's already 3AM in the morning.

It feels like the other driver passing by at the opposite road is saying, "Hey stupid, just drive on! There's no car driving thru! It's 3am dude! There's no traffic police either! Who are you anyway? An angel!? Just drive you moron!"

And to add pressure, 2 more car are now lining behind my car. Probably saying the same thing, "Just drive man, there's no traffic, don't waste my time!"

But maybe it's just my thought. My negative thought to be exact. Nowadays traffic lights are more sophisticated. They got this digital counter to tell you how many seconds before it turns to red or green again. I like it, especially when I'm at the front, watching the red digit countdown..3..2..1..GO! Just like F1 racing! And when it's blinking green, from afar I know I got only 10 seconds to drive thru. Well I think traffic lights aren't bad after all. It tells me when to stop or go, or to slow down or get ready to go.

I wish in life there is some sort of traffic light to tell me when to stop or when to go at doing something. So I feel a little secure when it is green and knowing its red to do something. Life is like a journey. Whatever vehicle u're in, you choose a destiny. And you also got to choose whether to use the highway or the old way.

It doesn't mean that the highway could guarantee you better result but I guess it's easier and proven. But challenges lies everywhere. And no life is life without challenges and obstacles.

And it's good to have signs also. It's easier to know where we're heading in life to reach our destiny. Just like in the roads, I see signs that read, "turn left", "turn right","sharp turn ahead","winding road","Stop","No entry","one way", etc.etc.

If there is some sort of signs n traffic lights to guide our path in life, would it be good? I do not know. Maybe God have already given us signs but we could not see it or we have ignored it.

But even though there are signs n traffic lights in the roads, some people just won't follow. They don't stop at the red light and they don't bother to follow or even bother to read the signs.

Me, I have several times ran over red lights and some signs. Why did I do that? At those point of time maybe I just don't bother or I'm taking a calculated risk or I'm simply in a brief stupidity mode.

Looking back at my life, there are things that I've done or didn't do even though that the signs or warnings are at my awareness. Why? Simply because I'm not perfect. And you know what they say that rules are meant to be broken!

Detour

My life is sliding down just like a rollercoster...don't know if i've already reached the bottom...but everything is not over yet...I know my rollercoster of life will have the momentum to slide upwards once I reached the bottom...And I will prepare for the next slide down...hopefully...

mOVING oUT

My landlord came to my house 3 days ago. It was a suprised to me since I usually go to her house to pay the rent.  She then told me that she got to move in to my house (well, technically her house) within a week. She said she can't tell me why she gotta move in here but she mentioned about her business that got into some problems and that this will be just a temporary move. Why a week!? She said that it is an auspicious day for her to move in. Guess it's not an auspicious day for me! This is bad I thought. Where will I find a new house within this week ! All the arrangements, the packing, etc.etc. There's too little time!

 

I  suddenly remembered that our tenancy aggreement has expired last March. So I couldn't ask her to give me notice to move out a month earlier. But then she gave me a relief when she said that she understands my situation. She said that if I couldn't find a new house, she got one house nearby that I can move in. Phew!!  She actually owned a few houses she rent out.

 

So by Wednesday 21st, she will move out from her million ringgit mansion to my (err, hers) 3 hundred ringgit house, giving me a  one hundred plus ringgit new house.

 

Now, I gotta think about cleaning the new house, packing my stuff and finding a lorry (I think I will borrow my brother's). After that, unpacking and rearranging in the new house. After that, there is much more thing to do. Changing the postal address, the phone no. and informing all the people that must know.

 

It's been 2 year and 6 mths since  I live in that house. Come to think of it, its a good thing if I move out also. It will give me new environment. Since living there, I already like pushed the sofa and the tv/hifi set quite a dozen ways just to give it a fresh look. It think its already pushed too much. What they and I need is a fresh new space. And that will be our new home! 

Must I have a title?

VCD n DVD bought these few days..
 
DVD
 
oUTkast - video mtv, reason buying : the music, the band, rate : not viewed yet
 
Michael Jackson History - reason buying : billie jean, beat it and it remind me of my years moon walking..hahaha, rate : OK la considering old stuff..
 
No Doubt - video singles, reason buying : the music, the band n gwen.., rate : not viewed yet
 
Red Hot Chilli Peppers - Live Concert, reason buying : everything 'bout 'em, rate : not viewed yet, but I'm sure it will be a gem in my collection.
 
VCD - ORIGINAL PIRATE ONES
 
mEAN gIRLS - rate : hahahahahahaa...great!
 
white Chicks - rate : hahaha then...huhuhu...coz the disc stop somewhere in the middle (wosak!) sucks! To be continued later...
 
Farenheit 9/11 - rate : Not viewed yet.
 
Current book reading : John C. Maxwell, Leadership 101, Equipping, rate: powerful..but what a thin book, i'll finish it by tomorrow...

Therapy?/Delusions?/Insecurity?/

I read in the papers just the other day that shopping or window shopping is a good way to reduce stress among women. They did not mention anything about e-bay or e-shopping and or this sort of self therapy would give the same effect to the male counterpart. Maybe because males are less of a shopper themselves (but I like shopping though).

Maybe it is true. It can reduce the stress. But what I think is that this thing does not settled the problem or the stress but merely shifting it to another place.

How? Imagine a woman so stress out. One way to get some relief or joy is to go to the nearest mall or shopping complex for a shopping spree. Alone or with some friends (accomplices). Cash or credit cards. It doesn't matter. Whether she needed the things or not. Whether it matters if the sales girl says she looks like Kylie Minogue in that pink skirt (although she is in her forties) just to get extra commissions.

Whatever it takes to eliminate the stress away even for just a few hours in the mall and continued for another few hours in plush coffee shops, eating ice-creams (another ritual of the females to throw some stress away) and chat about stuff they bought. And how beautiful is the bottles of Jean Paul Gaultier perfume they just bought even if the contents and the smell is overpriced. Just because it's a designer perfume!

Yes, the stress is gone or reduced but it's actually at the same time slowly transferred to another place or person. Yup, guess what? The next location is the 'husbands' or 'bfs'. With all the credit card charged, the stress is on these poor dudes (transferred and settling in). So what do these guys do to release this stress??

You got it! Transfer it somewhere else. Maybe to someone else at the coffee shop, the mamak or wherever they like. Finding helping ears to listen to their distress. Maybe that helping ear is also doing the same thing, pouring his stress and worries out, vice versa. Feeding on each other and reducing the pain.

Maybe I'm over reacting on this issue. Maybe it's not an issue after all. Maybe those women just need an excuse to steal some time with friends doing stuff they like. Maybe these men also need to get away to do some guy stuff. Maybe it's not true at all that shopping can reduce stress. Well there's a lot of maybe here.

This reminds me of 'pain killer' pills. I usually take them when I have a toothache or headache. It lasted for a few hours, just enough so I can sleep painlessly. The pills tell my brain that my tooth are not aching, although it does. The pain is there but I can't feel it.

Just like shopping or hangin' out, it gives some joy and space to breathe but our problems or stress are still there.

Conclusion :
Painkillers, shopping, hanging out does not solve problems but give some temporary relief. Which is good.

My Prescriptions:

1)Paracetamol :
Always handy ( a pack of Milidon 500) I'll bring it anywhere I go, in case of emergency!

2)Shopping :
I rarely do. But if I do, I just shop for VCDs, DVDs, CDs, books or mags.

3)Hanging out :
Jamming Studio(need at least one friend to play the drums) 2 to 3 hours playing from Nirvana to Metallica, blues or whatever shit I remember.

Coffee Escape. For chillin' out alone, some soul searching. Usually in the evenings. Root beer float, Panini sandwich or some fries.

The mamaks. Lazy days. Minor stress. Nescafe tarik and The Malay Mail.

My bed. Absolute boredom. All day. Lazier days. Doing nothing. Just my soul. My body is useless this moment.

SHAKE BEFORE USE.
EXPIRY : UNTIL SANITY REAPPEARS.

To shahida

To shahida, thanks for the picture. Nah! nak sangat gambo ko kat blog aku.Kan aku cakap aku tak akan meyuperimposekan gambo ko. Hahaha...tak caya..lagipun kalau superimpose pun bukan aku bole buat duit...okies..study hard, play hard k.. 

excuse me while i kiss the sky.. 

If I am Superman...

The first thing I'll do is change the dorky name 'Superman'. It sounds so silly. Like bragging or some sort. Hey check it out I'm Superman! I mean c'mon it's the new millennium already. Gotta keep up with the time u know. How 'bout MOSH? It's easy to remember, it's sounds fresh. Just like BONO of U2, PINK, MOBY or SLASH of GN'R. It got that nice ring to the sound, MOSH! I like it! So it's settled then, no more Superman. It's MOSH! Hehehe...

Hey! And that goes the same with the shitty outfit also. They gotta go dude. I mean, are you crazy? Red underwear! And he wears it outside his pants! Duh! I mean, red undies would look great for ladies (e.g Wonderwoman or any girls for the matter), but for men, yucks! (Now you know why Clark Kent does not want people to know he's Superman). We need a full make over here!

O.K, how about getting some sponsors for my new hip costume. Why not? I've done great things to help people all over the world, didn't I? From helping cats stucked on high trees, fighting bad peoples preventing crimes, preserving peace, harmony and unity among mankind..bla bla bla. I deserved this,don't you think so?

Anyway it can help boost the sales of those who sponsored me right? Imagine Adidas or Nike sponsporing my new custom made boots. And my new outfit by Calvin Klein or DKNY or GUESS or any designer labels. I'm sure they'll be happy. I know I will. Hey, and I need sunglasses too!

Next, I want 20% of profits of all merchandise related to me sold worldwide. Well, I gotta start saving for my future retirement you know. Do you think I will be flying and fighting everyday saving people asses until I'm 95 years old? Come on, I'll get old too you know. Remember I crashed to earth when I was a baby? And remember I was Superboy before? I'm sure I'm gonna be super old later! And anyway, some bad guy will surely get me with the bloody kryptonite one day!

Hey, maybe I'll get a TV producer for a reality TV program (these days people are crazy for reality TVs and this also means more money for my retirement fund..hehe). Maybe titled 'The Super Life'. This could lead me to Hollywood. Now I got a better idea! I will run for Governor of California. I mean, I'm better, stronger and more handsome than Arnie. So if he can do it, why not me? And I speak better than him. Beware Arnie!!

There's more to change if I'm Superman, I mean MOSH. One thing is that I will let people know who I am. No more Clark Kent! Anyway, I don't like to be a hypocrite you know. And I've already loose that stupid outside red underwear remember? So no need to be ashamed anymore. Plus I don't need to go for work at that shitty Daily Planet (it doesn't pays good either). I'm a superhero! I already got loads of work around the world. Not to mention as a governor later (hehe) and attending interviews and photo shoots for mags etc.etc. I'm a Hollywood star too!

And, I will fly a lot less now. Actually, I'm afraid of heights (even though I know if I fell, I won't get hurt). I just hate heights, period! Call me a sissy and I'll punch you out!

And also I will attend to only really really really emergency cases only. I mean you got the police, firemen, the army,the navy, boyscouts and volunteers everywhere in the world.And all of 'em ('cept the volunteers)are paid by the government and the people who pays tax. I don't want they taking me for granted that I'm a superhero and I should do all their work for them. And also take me as an excuse to become lazy! I mean you all are paid man. So get to work! Anyway, I got only two hands and two feet o.k, so gimme a break!

I'm also thinking of setting a phone-in number, so people could dial for my help and consultation. It will cost $1.50 per minute and you can also send SMS to me too for 50ct per SMS. They can also visit my website at www.supadude.com, loads of quizzes and prizes to be won. They could also become a member of my fan club and get special privileges such as Nightfly (an evening fly with me around the city for 15 minutes,err..only for females tho, with special discounts for club members).

Hey, come to think of it, I could do lot of things. I could open theme restaurants just like Planet Hollywood, a fitness centre, write a book, become a model, a talk show host and loads more stuffs. But I guess it's better if I'm not Superman. And let Superman be Superman.

'Coz I'm quite a procastinator myself. And that is bad. Imagine people in need of my help and I procastinated. By the time I reached the scene of the crime, these people could be dead! And what so super about a superhero who is afraid of heights?! Sooner or later people will go for other fine dude such as Batman, Spidey or even that green cousin of Shrek, Hulk! I don't need to be a superhero to have a super time anyway. I just need my Washburn Dimebag guitar and a friend to jam with and I will have a super duper time! Right on!

Nu kid on the Blog

Finally. I'm here. Blogging. Not that this is something new for me. I write stuffs on paper usually before I sleep almost everynight (and day too, coz sometimes I sleep all day).Mostly I write because I cannot sleep. When reading a book won't help me to sleep, I write stuffs. When I get bored of reading and my eyes still won't shut, I write stuffs. When its too early in the morning to play my electric guitar (gotta respect my neighbors, they're ok, up to now anyway), I write stuffs. When there are nothing on TV worth watching (e.g re-runs of Days of Lives & Wheel of Fortune) and after watching over an over the Red Hot Chilli Peppers Live In Paris VCD (lurve 'em), and still I can't fall asleep, I write stuffs. Never kept a single diary in my life. Never like it anyway. Maybe because I have nothing to write in it. Nothing good that is. And nothing bad too. Do I have a sleeping disorder? No. Why the hell do I blog then? My room is getting messier each day, papers here and there. Well, actually it always a mess without those papers too (haha). The real reason is I want to contribute my efforts towards saving the trees and environment by minimizing the use of papers. That is why I blog, truly (hahaha). I'm getting sleepy, gez it's time to stop for now...