Time the best healer, or is it?

Today is 31st January 2005. Sekejap je masa bergerak. Pelik. There are two possibilities to why time feels like flies at supersonic speed, at least for me. One, the earth is spinning faster and faster. And so is the galaxy system. Duh! sounds stupid! But then again, I'm not a scientist and it's just a possibility. Second, I'm pursuing something or actually a lot of things that i feel there's always not enough time. Catching up with deadlines and targets. Too busy and as always feel like time is not on my side. Then come the question of death. It occurs to me one day that I'm actually dying away each second of every minute of everyday of my life. Tick tick tick tock..getting near to the end. I concluded that living is actually dying. Or to be exact, the process of dying. A micro rigor mortis of life. The big question is, am I ready to die? A question, quickly ignored by my concious mind. If a picture of darkness, tight space, loneliness and punishments clouds the mind about death then that thought will surely kill instantly. Then lies the answer that i'm afraid of death.
But then, if a picture of serenity, peace, calm and joy that describes death or the next world, automactically death is not to be afraid of. My favorite option is forget about it, do what i can do, ready or not, the day will come. I rest my future destiny of the other side in God¡¦s hand. Yup, God the Almighty, He knows everything. God gave everybody young and old, rich or poor, the same amount of time, 24hrs a day. People say time heals, right now I'm not sure coz sometimes time kills.

Dead Poet Society

Takde masa blog banyak2 keje banyak semalam tokleh tido pen bergerak2, membebel jadilah kat bawah..

Tenggelam 26.01.05 5.37am
Aku terbang ke bintang jauh
Aku bisik ¡¥tuk menumpang sinar
Walau sekejap tapiku rela
Dari dekat menanggung seksa
Aku tegur bulan mengambang
Bicara sejenak tentang dunia
Tiada indah katanya di mata
Jika jiwa tak sampai pun jua
Aku tahan angin di awan
Berlalu tanpa ku dihirau dia
Tidak kelihatan tapi ku rasa
Hendak ku sapa hilang suara
Lalu ku genggam tanah di tangan
Baru ku sedar ke atas angan
Aku jejaki dataran nan sepi
Menyusuri alam tiada bertepi
mencari erti sebuah mimpi

rear view

Book :
I finished reading Losing My Virginity : Autobiography of Richard Branson, cool book, very thick and i just cant get enough. From Richard early age, school, lovelife to being the man who setting records and having his own mega business, the Virgin Group of companies including Virgin Atlantic, the commercial air service. Lots of humor and i love the way he form and build Virgin Records plus stories about his artistes, Mike Oldfield, The Sex Pistols, Phil Collins, Boy George, etc. I very much recommend this book to anyone who loves music, passion to achieve his/her dream and love life!
Price : Free, my fren from australia gave me as they are off back to down under. they did a garage sale and i bought 2 novels for rm10, very cheap. nobody wanna buy this book, so Lynn give it to me since i help her sold some books plus she said im the one holding the book for quite some time.hahaha. actually i was about to buy it, but then she said it was mine, so¡K
VCD :
Meet The Fockers, funny, but not as funny as Kung Fu Hustle, Stephen Chow rawks! but great performance as always by Dustin Hoffman and De NiRO.
Ocean Twelve, well what can i say, it sucks! i fallen asleep at the 1st cd¡K
Price : Free again, actually kawan i bagi pinjam. I was with him at the vcd stall, when i want to buy some vcds, he would said, that one i bought already, this one also, this one also¡Kso why buy when u can borrow, right? You should have seen the face of the guy who sells the vcd, kinda pissed since i didnt bought any¡K
DVD:
The Wind Fighter, Korean true story about a korean guy who beat every Japanese martial arts fighter, Judo, Karate, Akaido, Samurai, whatever u name it, he beat them all¡Kvery entertaining, great stuff!
Price : refer to VCD price..eheh
ACD:
System Of A Down : Steal this Album!. Since my pc still wosak, all my mp3 stuck there in the hard disk. So i kinda miss SOAD. This copy includes all the song from toxicity album too, so its worth my ringgit! I also bought, Black Eye Peas : Elephunk, well same reason ere¡K
Price : RM7 per cd, well pirate copy is always handy and economic¡K

Days of Thunder

2005, why? 2004, goodbye, 2003, forgotten¡K,2002, dont wanna remember, 2001,lost..,2000 millineum bugs that bugs!sucks!
forgive my mumbling..aku tension these few days...everything seems not ok..tunggulah tonite maybe aku dapat new energy meeting new people...maybe...

I need water!!

kcuf! kcuf! this damned pc! i¡¦ve been writing for 15minutes then suddenly its gone! the beladi post is gone! damn!

Drive

I love driving. Driving in a certain comfortable and good condition gives me pleasure. Joy. It gives me a certain feel of freedom and superiority. Superiority over time and distance. Sometimes it feels like flying. With the wind in my ace and hair. With the sound of radio friendly tunes coming off from the stereo. Alone in control in the driver's seat. Right hand on the steering and the left on the gear shift. With the Rayban on the face. Singing and sometimes lip-synching to the songs blasted from the radio. I'm in control. I'm free for the moment. A comfortable and good condition means that the car is in well condition. The road is not conjested. Traffic is moving smoothly. The wheather is good ( I don't like driving in the rain). Most important is that i'm not in a hurry or late to somewhere or for something.

I hate bad roads. Potholes, uneven tar, poor signages and lines, bad roadlights or worse no roadlights or light reflectors. I hate disfunctional trafic lights. I hate bad drivers. Those that drives with their butss on their heads and brains (if they got any) on their buns. Drivers with no sense of safety or politeness to fellow roadmembers. Who wants to show off or prove something on the roads and at the same time endagering others. The only thing they proved is their stupidity and the lack of brain power. They are dangerous and reckless. I hate bikers that have their bike's tail light off. Either the light bulb blows or they deliberately turn it off. It's hard to see them in the night, especially when the the highway is poorly lit. And they worn dark clothings and no light reflector stickers on their helmets.

I do not understand their negligence for their safety. A speeding truck, lorry or bus or even a car could easily hit them. Their life is like a timebomb. More like a booby trap or a landmine waiting for someone to step on. Or seamines waiting for a ship or a vessel to hit it. And when it did, BOOM!! A tragedy. They and the hitters becomes just another statistic numbers and digits.

I do not want o add to the figures and statistics. I don't want to be eaten by steel collisions. I just wanna fly safely in my car, humming my favorite songs and arrive at my selected destinations.